I should still have the 30 day stop smoking course completed in time.
I'm quite liking having more space this week to do the things I want to do, in my own time. The only pressure on me is the pressure I put on myself.
Hopefully I can get a bit more done tommorrow. I'd like to record another 5 audios tomorrow.
Lets hope it goes to plan.
I'm now watching prison break. I'm now on episode 4 of series 4, only another 20 episodes left.
Jason Newland
]]>Not quite sure where the rest of my stuff s gonna go as my new room i a lot smaller than the old one.
I can't say I love moving - it's such hassle. It's nice to e somewhere new in a way but it's a change in routine which has thrown me off a bit.
I do like the change as well - a bit of a novelty & I now feel more like a student. Now that I'm nearer the college.
Started skills practie group - which is practicing counselling with a patner who is the clent. I find it quite difficult to know what to say as its non directive. Plus its a bit strange being watched my someone else as well (there are usuuall 2 observers)
I now do 2 group skills practice a week & the whole day at college (we also do skills practie on that day too).
Yesterday, during a practice session I started laughing & couldn't stop. Very unproffessional. I was actually recording the session too for a project. So a bit of a waste of time, I guesse. But a learning experience. I know that it wouldn't happen in a real situation, but still a bit dissappointing for me.
When I've moved my stuf, I'll jus relax forthe rest of the evening. Tommorrow I shall be studying. I have 3 pieces of work which I have to hand in by december 7th 2007. (not sure why I put the year?)
So if theres anyone out there who fancies doing my essays - email me.
Only kidding - or am I?
Anyway - Gotta go now & post this blog then head of soon.
love jason newland
www.jasonnewland.com
]]>I was having some difficulties with living in the buddhist community, and am glad in some ways to be out of there. Obviously I miss some of the guys I lived with for the last couple of years, but its time to move on.
I'm going to be at college 3 times a week from this week. Once for normal class & twice meeting up with groups for practice skills.
At the moment I'm trying to sort out my finances & keep things going till i get my next student loan. its a bit of a struggle at the moment, but come next year I'll be a bit better off. Just got to be careful till january. When i get m next payment, I'll have more a week to lve on, becuse i'll have less to pay out for.
My new house is lovely & my landlady & landlord are very friendly. I've even made some new friends down the local pub. Which is not somethiing I usually do. I normally keep myself to myself in pubs. Maybe a bit shy.
I'm really geting into the person centred counselling. Its more interesting to me every time I read about it. I think the ide of it all is gradually sinking in & beginning to make sense to me on quit a deep level.
I have wireless internet at my new home free, & my own bathroom & my own fridge & my own cudboard. Heaven.
The rooms a bit smaller, so not sure where the rest of my belongings are going to go, when i move the rest in at the weekend.
Probably have to hide it all away somewhere.
I've not flt articularly well the last couple of days, but sure I'll be fine.
I didnt do voluntary today, so jut had a day relaxing.
Started to listen to classic fm online. Very relaxing. Infact I'm listening to it now as I type.
http://www.classicfm.co.uk/Article.asp?id=421143
Its good. nice.
Not sure what to do about volunteering at samaritans, as I've now moved away from that area where i was going to volunteer. I seem to have moved away in other ways from helping people with chronic pain relief. I've been so distracted with everything thats going on, I lose track of time, I guesse.
I havent recorded a new audio or video for ages. I will do some more soon, when I'm settled in here. It'll be easier here because its quieter. Thats one of the reasons i stopped trying to record stuff at my other home, because i never knew when there was going to be noise. Be it continuous traffic outside the house, someone singing or playing loud music or just doors being slammed. There were 5 of us, so bound to be a bit noisy.
Maybe, i can get down to it & get back into the swing of things & help more people.
I have changed my website & made it a bit more simple to use. I intend to build it up more & promote it more too over the next few years, all being well.
Ideally, I'd like to have some kind of revenue coming in from it by the time I leave college in 3 years, but not sure how thats gonna happen, as its a free service. Unless more peope click on the adwords on my site, I suppose. That would help.
Anyway, thats enough from me for one day.
love jason newland x
]]>I started the day reading for an hour before i got up & ended up feeling tired. A bit of eye strain, possibly.
I know from experience that I shouldn't read first thing in he morning. Co's I always seem to end up feeling really tired.
I saw a couple of friends this morning on the way to the bus station.
When I got tio my nan's, I was so tired, we decided to have a nap - (seperate chairs) - Can't believe I've turned into a pensioner.
Had my lunch at my nans & then went to my dads & spent some time there. My step mum has got out of hospital after a big op. She seems ok. Her mum & dad were there aswell, plus my step brother, who's also been in hospital.
As for me, now - I'm watching x factor on tv. That's my saturday night. mmmmm.
I have phoned a few friends tonight, as i have free calls on my phone tarrif. Vodafone.
College is good this week, getting to know more of the other students on the course this week.
I'm feeling ok tonight.
Thinking about maybe getting a job - part time job - one day a week. I'm in need of a bit of cash. Especially with xmas coming up & new warm clothes soon needed.
Anyway, thats enough for today. i think i had a girfriend. Where?????
xx
]]>It's been a while since I last added an entry.
I'm still an unemployed person - but doing much more voluntary work.
At the moment I'm busy spending time uploading long videos that I recorded onto
lots of different video sites. They take over 2 hours to upload each.
No romance on the horizon, which is OK, but I do get a little lonely sometimes.
The community is going alright. A few arguments now & then, but all in all
I live in a relatively peaceful Buddhist Community.
I videod 2 stop smoking sessions & have uploaded them on my webs site.
Not sure what else to write. Oh yeah - I now have a cd recorded with proper case & cd cover.
It looks really professional.
The content of the relaxation cd has had a lot of possitive feedback.
At the moment it's only available at the charities I volunteer, but I may sort out a version for
my clients worldwide. Some people have asked me if they can buy a cd from me, but up till now
I've not been able to produce any cd's with the proper covers, until now.
At the moment I'm awaiting a letter from the councelling course I applied for. I should find out
by the end of the week whether they want to interview me or not.
So, that's it from me.
love jason x
Skype: buddhistjay
Windows Live messenger: jasonnewland@hotmail.co.uk
I'm now officially unemployed. Hurra!!!!
So, I've had a bit more time to work on my website & promoting my free services.
I have eventually found a way for visitors to my site to listen & download my free audio/videos, much quicker
than before. I've now got a special software which makes this realy easy & quick.
You just need to go to the main page on my site & click on your chosen session
& you will go to a menu with all my sessions listed.
Then just click on which one you want & then you get a choice about whether you want to RUN or SAve.
I'm pretty pleased with this new service I offer.
So, gonna go now & sleep as I have a day out tommorrow.
love jason
]]>I've been a bit out of circulation the last couple of days, due to not feeling too good.
It may be due to the weather change here in the UK. (why did I say UK? It's not like weather in another country is gonna affect my health).
The weather has changed from really warm - really cold. not liking it. Just feeling a bit rubbish, & unfortunately I still have to go out. I have
an appointment at the job centre. I have cancelled everything elase I had planned today.
I couldn't get out of the job centre interview, as it's my unemployment interview. If I don't turn up, I won't get any money. (that's if they pay me anything?)
Even with a big jumper I'm still cold. I hav the coldest bedroom in the world. Even Penguins avoid it.
Ironically, my head is peeling from sunburn 4 days ago.???????????????????????????? Now I'm getting frost bite in my left buttock.
The good news, is --- big Brother starts here in uk, tonight. Yahoooo!!! That saves me trying to think of something to do for the next 3 months.
I love BB - its great. By the way, BB = Big Brother. Not Big Boobs. Although, if I had to choose between them????
Anyway, I'm looking forward to getting well again. Although I think I feel better than I did yesterday.
Oh yeah, a wierd thing happened earlier. I waas sitting eating a banana toasted sandwich (the type of food I was eating isn't realy relevant to this story)
& I heard a loud buzzing in my right ear (again, I probably heard the buzzing in both ears, but the predominent volume level was on my right side) I looked
down & there was a huge hornet sitting on my right shoulder. I was so shocked, I nearly stopped eating.
It was huge. That's pretty much the end of the story really. Not much else happened after that, I just put it outside. Mabe I need to work on that story
& inject more drama. Perhapse a love story that ended suddenly due to an unusual tree activity.
So, gotta go & pretend to tidy my room.
love jason x
]]>Tomorrow is my last day ar work.
I've been a little concerned about my future, concerning earning an income.
Well, the time has come & I guesse I just have to get on with it. I am having leaving lunch with a few people from work
tommorrow. And that'll be that. I'm not having a leaving do as such. Also, I can't really drink much at lunch as I'm leading
a group relaxation session at 4pm.
So, thats me really. Don't know what I'm gonna do at all. I intend to continue with my website & pain relief & relaxation sessions online.
I'd like to also increase the amount of sessions I do with people locally, but that will have to be later on, as I need to focus on
immediate financial situation.
I'm now going to watch tv.
]]>I did 2 group sessions today. They were both good. They seemed to go well.
I've got the afternoon off tomorrow.I'm not doing any group sessions.The next one is next monday.
Work is getting very boring indeed. It just seems a bit pointless going there. I'm glad it's only 5 hours a day. Also only 4 days left of working there.
It's gone so quick.
I've re-thought my financial situation & I've decided to put a donation box back on my website. I just need to get enough tio live on.
I only need £450 per month to get by. That's not a huge amount.
I'm not sure if anyone will make a donation, but it's worth a go.
The other alternative,is possibly selling all my belongings on ebay. Admittedly not my first choice.(I wonder why?)
I'm going to continue building my website & promoting my free relaxation & chronic pain relief service. I'm looking at mabe even doing
a live online broadcast. Stay tuned.
love jason x
]]>I had a pretty average day today. Slightly tired but feeling ok.
I've only 0ne week left till I leave my job. My last day is next wednesday.
It's community night in 10 minutes & then afterwards, I'll watch tv & upload my blog.
The group session I lead today was with just one person - a member of staff. But I've been assured that tomorrow
will be alot more people. Heres hoping.
I worked on my cv today at work, & it's come together alright. Quite neat. I think I'm
just going to go for some agency work - 2 or three days a week. That'll do me. I won't start for a couple of weeks.
Oh yeah - I'm experimenting with Sainsburys basics (cheap food). I'm giving it a go, & if it's ok
I'll start making it my main food. MMMM - yummy - poverty - yahoo!!!
Anyway - that's me - I'd better go downstairs & pretend to be attentive.
love jason x
]]>Why?
Thats gotta be abit of a boring job, I reackon. No offence, to those who do it.
Anyway, heres me talking about the weather - a very british thisng to do, don't you know.
I was up very late last night again, watching the sopranos. It was good. So, this morning, when I finally managed to crawl out
of bed, i felt rather tired indeed. SO, i had a bit of a nap when I got home. I'm now feeling more refreshed.
I will be watching the simpsons then I'll have some food. I'll continue this web stuff & then I think I'll have an early night.
Work is ok, if not a bit pointless. Only 7 more working days left till i retire. I worked on getting together some kind of
CV - so i can send it out or give it to agencies in a few weeks. I am considering joining some temp agencies & just working 2 or 3 days a week.
Oh yeah - contrary to yesterdays blog entry, i've decided not to ask for donations from my website.Don't ask me why, i just don't feel right.
So, I will look for either some kind of sponsorship so I can continue my free services, or just continue part time & work part time.
Either way, I have every intention of continuing with my free work as its really important to me.
I'd better go & peel some potatoes now.
love jason x
]]>I have worked today & also lead my relaxation session tonight. It went well. It's really good to hearthe benefits that those who attend have experienced.
It makes what I do worthwhile.
Yesterday, I came to a decision. I've decided to accept donations on my website. I've tried to avoid acepting money from anyone for
my free services, but now I'm going to be without work & also the amount of time I spend on my business, means I had to review it.
I have had a lot of people over the months wanting to pay me for what I do online, but I've always said,"no".
perhapse its time that I started to realize that I can't continue spending all my time doing something that costs me money. And now that my job finishes
on 23rd of may, I will need to eat & pay my went. I don't actually need much money - only £450 per month will do me. Obviously, I won't be doing anything,
other than pay my rent & eating, but thats ok. I don't really mind.
I'm not sure how its going to go. Totally unsure.
Never mind I'll soon find out.
I went back to work today after a week off. I'm quite tired today, but had a sleep in the afternoon (I'm turning into a pensioner.)
The last 2 eisodes of The Sopranos are on tonight, so another late one for me.
xx
love jason x
]]>I've spent the whole day working on my website & uploading my video to loads of websites. Very tiime consuming.
Things are looking ok, regarding the progression of my site. It's slowly growing. At the moment I am trying to add 10
news stories a day & my blog every day.
I also emiled my audio & video sessions to some members of my email list. Again, a very time consuming task. I know
I'm not making any money out of this, but I could really do with some help. It's a lot for one person to do on a daily basis.
The other thing that just happened is: I saw a girl I know from a job I used to have. I used to really like her - in a romantic way, but
nothing ever happened because she was always with someone, plus I don't think she was particularly interested in me in that way.
seeing her was nice, but has left me with quite a low painful feeling. I was walking home in a bit of a emotional frustration.
Anyway, it doesn't really matter I guesse. Oh yeah & I was then served on the counter by a girl I really like now. Shes very cheeky to me, which I seem to like for
some reason. She is way too young for me, so nothings going to happen there.
Most of the time I'm ok, keeping busy working on my web stuff & the relaxation/chronic pain relief & Buddhism - then
occasionally I feel so lonely inside. It never usually lasts for long, but It's not exactly pleasant whilst it's happening.
I don't particularly want to a relationship, but sometimes - I really could do with one. Aint I strange.
The financial situations is still on my mind. I'm not sure how I'm going to get by without any money ----??????
See ya x
love jason x
]]>Had a meditation then the electricity came back on & I did a bit more web stuff. Then I went to di a group relaxation session, which seemed to go well.
I did a bit of a longer session & aimed it mainly at help with sleeping.
Then I went to see Spiderman 3. It was ok. Mabe it's me, but I found it a bit predictable. The effects were great.I liked the sandman.
Just got home & had a sandwich which I bought from sainsburies.
Oh yeah - our washing machine has broken down & we called an engineer. He arrived 10 minutes after the electricity went off.
So, he couldn't do anything to repair it. he is coming back on monday. My underpants are not happy.
Also, my mbile phone is playing up & only works when it feels like it.
Thats enough of my moaning.
I'm just going to continue working on my webstuff the rest of the night, till beddy byes.
]]>The sessions went well & I think I made the right choice in choosing my volunteering instead of the job. I just need to have a purposeful life.
I had a lovely email sent to me,from a lady in America (I think) saying how much My audio sessions helped her in sleeping. It makes all this work worthwhile.
I'm still trying to work out how I can raise some money to live on. I'm going to have to sort something out over the next month. But until that time, I'm
going to continue what I'm doing.
The relaxation group sessions went very well today. I do love doing it.
At the moment I'm looking at ways I can promote myself & my services. Although i want to keep my online services free, I will have to look at my options.
Hopefully, I'll figure something out. I do think it's important to keep my free audio & video sessions available to everyone.
One possibility is recording a professional relaxation session in a recording studio & then offering as a paid download. But also, keep the free live sessions available too.
Not sure at the moment, tme will tell.
I'm also looking at a way to send my downloads via normal hotmail email. At the moment it won't let me as files are too large.
It would be great, cos then I could just send the sessions to my email members & thats a done job.
Back to work, see ya later.
I'm currently litening to craig david on cd.
love jason x
]]>Here I am again. Mainly I've spent the whole day working on my webstuff. Altough I did leave my house at 3pm to go & lead a group relaxation sessions at the local drug rehab centre.
Thats was good. It was a pretty smaill group, but it seemsed to work fine & a couple of people who had been twice before said it was thier best time so far.
It's always nice to get possitive feedback.
I've felt a little bit tired today & I'm yawning as I write this. It'll soon be dinner time, as one of my housemates is cooking tonight. Saves a bit of time.
We'll all be getting together this evening as we do most wedneday evenings. It's our community night. We just get together, have some food 7 then have a tune in.
This tine in is basically, each person speaks about how they are, hopefully without interruption.That's it really. We also discuss any business regarding the house.
As far as the house being sold, that seems to be put on a back burner for now.
My tummy is now rtying to get my attention. it's like a puppy when it's hungry. Beg beg beg. It just don't stop.
So, thats it from me for another day, I havent even lookmed at the job section of the local paper yet, I'll look later.
See ya.
love jason x
]]>Well, here I am. I'm actually on holiday for the week. Funny as I actually leave my job on the 23rd of this month.
I was supposed to get to my new early morning cleaning job for the initial interview at 6.30am this morning. I really struggled to get out of bed, but eventually did. I had a banana & went outside & got my bike, which I havent used for a year.
When I went to ride it, I couldn't. The back wheel was jammed. So, I couldn't go anywhere.
I just went back to bed.
In all reality, If I struggle to get up at 6am, what am I gonna be like getting up at 4am? Thats what time I'll have to get uo to start at 5am every morning.
I've decided to just concentrate on my pain relief/relaxation work. I know I'm not making any money, but Its what I want to do. its what makes me feel as though my life is worthwhile.
I'll ccarry on as I am for a couple of months & then I may have to start selling my belongings to pay the rent. We'll see what happens.
That's it for me. I'm going to carry on with my web work untill bed time, then I'll continue tommorrow.
I'm doing a group session tommorrow, so that should be good. I may even tape it.
love jason x
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08 May 2007
busy all weekend
Hi
I have been working on promoting my website & my free services for h elast 3 days.
I start an early morning cleaning job, tommorrow. I mmet the boss at 6.30 am in the morning. Then I should start daily at 5am for 2 hours.
Early or what????
I'm now watchin the Sopranos on tv.
I'm not gonna get much sleep tonight. Also, tommorrow I have an interview at another cleaning company.
I'm not totally happy about doing cleaning work, but never mind.
love jason x
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